4 days to the wedding

here i am sitting with my laptop in my lap off course, trying to write about my feelings right now.4 days to my wedding
i want to write things but nothing is coming to my mind. i am starring at the cup of water sitting on my computer table and then my stare goes to my cell, which as usual needs charging. then there is my ja nimaz lying on my brother`s bed, have to pick that up too. My contacts are hurting, have to take them off. some random songs coming to my mind

everything except the feelings for the wedding, leaving my home

nothing ...

so maybe i need to sit back and gather my feelings and emotions which i have neglected for the past i don`t know how many days

R is acting weird, rather his usual self, he has these weird acting times

i don`t want to write anymore and maybe save this blog entry for editing tomorrow but i know if i leave it here i will never finish and publish it
so lets just publish it like this

wedding food.. caterers

We pay so much for food on weddings.. i never realized until my own.
We are going to have a huge number of guests around 600 and that is why the food money seems so much to me
God help my dad

lost and found

Can you believe it.. i lost and found my cell phone wohoo
This sound even stranger when i tell you that i left it in the Cafeteria of my office and found it 4 days after...
Actually, the security people found it for me
I already bought a new cell beacuse of two reasons
1. I knew for sure i am never gonna get my cell back
2. I was planning on buying a new phone for ages.

so now i have two cells... both are ok .. nothing to die for but hey i was dreaming for an iphone and hence landed on nokia 5130 :S

no connection right?

A song from my past.. actually present

I live in the past and i live alone

People come and go, moments come and go, time comes and goes..
but i have always lived in the past.
Is it a bad thing to live in the past? i don`t know but i have always done that
when i was living in the US.. i actually was living here in Pakistan, because i wanted to live in the past
and now that i am living in Pakistan... i actually am living in the US.. i think about all the places i used to go to, the things i used to do, my friends, my apartment, college, events, weather, snow, winds, ice cream, travelling

oh i live in the past and that is how i am

EID in kalabagh!!!

I had my last eid before marriage at Kalabagh. The place is so pretty and is near Murree, nathiagali

It was a blast with my uncle`s family , me and my bro ... the weather was awesome , unlike the hot and humid weather of Rawalpindi. We had hikes and walks and all kinds of fun i love. I did a little shopping from nathiagali.

Then after that i had to go see my MIL, she brought in my eidi the day i arrived back from kalabagh(3rd day of EID). Me and my bro went to her place , her elder DIL is expecting and in her last month so couldn`t come. I had to show my beautiful eid dress to her (EVIL), Oh btw i loved my Eid dress(the one i got for myself ).

No mehndi on eid this time.. couldn`t find time but yeh i got ots and lots of pics at kalabagh
Just to show you how the place looks like here are a few pictures:

R in the US of A

So i forgot to tell you guys that R is in the USA nowadays for an official visit
He will be staying for 5 weeks (2 of which have already passed). Of course i have asked him to bring some stuff.. but only a few things
R: abhi to america se wapis aai ho abhi aur lalach bhi hai ?
Me: yar i forgot to bring somethings :S

He is having fun there , has his own car so he is all over the place
I am glad he is enjoying

done with jewellery, furniture, walima dress and makeup yeh

It gives me immense pleasure to announce that i am done with my jewellery,walima dress and furniture orders... I even went ahead and talked to my MIL about the walima makeup and somehow managed to convince her to get my makeup done from the place i wanted to (evil grin). but hey i will also be paying some amount for that without letting her know. The damn parlor increased their charges by 3K in a month ... wish i had booked earlier

So life is on track now... with less then 1.5 months to go for the wedding...

The poison

I have noticed a bitterness inside me for people and relationships recently
what is going on i don`t know.. i don`t like it but can`t help it.
I have been thinking about how to get rid of all this and so far have not come up with a successful plan

clothes, jewellery,makeup ......shadi is driving me crazy

I have been busy busy with all the shadi preps
Not having any sister does not help :( especially the only sibling you have is a younger brother in college and as goof as mine (he once gave my dopatta to my MIL instead of her shalwar)
I have a long to do list half of which my parents don`t even know about like makeup booking, photoshoot booking etc.

I am working as well , not that i have a lot to do at the office (my boss is away for his annual leave) but still I have to wake up early in the morning and i come back at 7:15 pm ... can i practically do anything after that ? i still drag myself as i know , no body will do anything if i don`t.

Apart from the fact i am marrying the love of my life .. i hate this wedding.. it`s driving me crazy

missing boston

I hate to admit it to anyone but i am missing boston so much these days it makes me cry
i wish to go back there at least once more in my life

got an official laptop and the first pay

So, yesturday i got my new official laptop.. it`s an hp compac 6910p if anyone`s interested. My boss passed on his to me as he got a new one.. i believe he didn`t use it that much because it is in excellent shape...
there are two very cute butterfly stickers on it which he said his daughter put there... hehe
khair i also got my first pay yeeeeeeah... no work and pay is good.. nah
i feel bored sometimes because as much as hate it i don`t have much work yet. My boss said my honey moon period is one month.. i joined on july 3rd so it`s almost a month now.. hmmm but my boss is going on his annual leaves from 1st for two weeks ... so no work i guess for another two weeks

So i got one very nice formal suit for myself yesturday... pay jo mili thi
then got my mom one formal as well :)

bas ab ayashi.. deparately waiting for R to come on a vacation so that we can go out to eat...

wedding makeup

i have decided to get my makeup done from daniella in islamabad for the barat
but for the valima my MIL wants to get it donw from nikhar or headlines :(
i don`t use makeup and these two days would probably be the only days of my life i get makeup done so i want it to be the best not a money saver deal :(

tough decision to make

nowadays i am giving deep thoughts to what i should do after i get married.
You see the situation is something like this.
My husband R is in the army and lives 1.5 hours away from my city in a place that is not even a village. He gets bored there. I have just started working this month with a very decent salary. we are getting married in nov inshallah and after that i would either have to leave my job and live with him or continue with my job, live at my parents` place and visit him on the weekends (i do not drive so will have to learn how to drive as well as buy a car). R gets only Sundays off .. which being in the army are sometimes off as well.i can go to him on fridays after work and then drive to work on monday morning.Let me mention that ours is a love marriage and we have been together for 10 years now.. so practically all our adult life. We have always lived in different cities except for the first two years which were college years and we were not in love at that time.. just friends. We would love to live together

so difficult decision to make.. i still have time :S

i am back and all nikahfied

It happened on Friday July 10th.
I signed some papers and i was married
The day was a normal one.. i went to work in the morning as i just started working and also that i did not want to tell my colleagues about my nikah (people ask questions which i do not like).
I have heard that marriages change your life. Lets see what is coming my way.

Allah khair karay

My university`s pride !!!

I don`t know why and how but today while surfing the net and watching the movie "New York", i remembered that my university used to have an extremely humiliating event once every year.. not that i ever saw it live
a. because it always took place at midnight or so and i was always afraid of drunk people
b. because there were so many better things to do

khair here it is for you to see how humiliating and embarrassing it is

Nikah

The other day i went with my MIL to select my nikah outfit and the ring(i didn`t know she was taking me out for that).. next day we went to check the dyed color of the outfit and were both very please to see how good it turned out to be. So i think the nikah is on.. Although my MIL has not officially told my mom that it is :p

handwanna

Hmm i have been meaning to write about handwanna (water-melon/tarbooz) but somehow i have been busy in only eating it and enjoying....
So my mother calls it handwanna and i think it`s a funny word :)
i absolutely loooooooooooooove the tarbooz.. it`s so freaking awesome
i would prefer it on any aam (mango) any day
i can eat as much handwanna as available.. chilled off course
:)

Restlessness

I am restless
i wanna talk to you
i wanna tell you how i feel
i wanna have things my way
but the more i talk to you
the more i tell you how i feel
the more restless i become

Reading and not writing makes Amna a dull girl

I have been reading a lot of blogs, articles, stories here and there. I have been always fond of reading. I used to get used books from old book banks and then exchange them for more books after reading them. I have been very good at essay writing and stuff, i even used to write my own speeches for school competitions... But now i feel a lack of writing power.. i feel i don`t write as much as i should or want to.. i have so much to write about but the lazy me refuses to sit and write something good.
What is the remedy ????

Never knew deciding a wedding venue would be this difficult

My dad and i have been surveying possible venues for my wedding for almost a week now. Sometimes i think we have a lot of choices while at others , there are none... Strange haan
We have decided on one for the Mehndi. But the Barat one is tricky as we have a lot of guest on Bbarat (and when i say a lot i MEAN it)... i`ll write about the guest list later.
So we are yet to decide on a venue for the Barat. One is an open lawn type and the other is a big hall. The lawn seems better to me as it is less expansive and the barat function is during the day time. But my parents are afraid it might rain that day .. (i have been arguing that it is hardly much rain in november in pindi but parents are parents).. So now my dad has left it on me to decide if we should go for the hall or the lawn cum deck
HELP anyone

Story for Little Asad

This is a true story, written by my friend Gerri who owns a promotional advertisement company. She gave me this story to translate in urdu for Asad. it touched my heart and i am sure will touch yours as well.
June 2008

Our Story

Dear Asad,

This is our story…maybe it is not even a story but a statement of the facts as I remember them. The fact is….it is about me and you and how our lives become in a certain sense “one”.

March, 1992.

I am living in Gloucester, Massachusetts USA. I go to work everyday. I spend time with my family and friends. I live a busy life like most of the people I know. At this time in 1992, I believe your mother would be 16 years old and your father 21 years old. I am not sure where they were living or if they even knew each other at that time. They can fill in these facts for you as I am sure they will.

One day there is a story on TV and in the local newspaper about a young girl that had cancer and was in need of a bone marrow transplant. Her family had tried everything and as a last attempted to save her life they appealed to the local community to see if a bone marrow match for their daughter could be found. I remember hearing this on TV and thinking how desperate the family was to find a match for their little girl. They decided to have a blood drive one Saturday morning. The asked for people to come and have a simple blood test in hopes by some miracle a match would be found.

I am not sure what made me go that day but I decided it was important for me to go. I remember standing in line talking to complete strangers about this young girl and how terrible a situation this was. We knew the odds were slim in finding a match but it felt good to all of us to give it a go! I asked the nurse as I filled out the forms for the test what the chances were for the young girl. She said the odds were not good. I asked if I would be notified regarding the results. She responded, “Only if you are a potential match”. She said my name and blood type would be kept on file for the future however she continued….most people are not a match for anyone….ever! That was I last I heard about this and I never learned if the little girl found a match for the bone marrow.

December 2004

It is late in December almost the New Year (2005). I am still living in Gloucester, Massachusetts however since 1992, I have moved a couple of times, changed phone numbers, changed jobs and in 2000 started my our company, Corporate Accents Unlimited. As with many new companies we put up a web site which described what the business was all about. Corporate Accents is a promotional advertising company. We work with all kinds of companies. We take the name of the company and we imprint that name on T shirts, hats, bags, pens, coffee mugs and more. By now you are probably wondering why I am telling you so much about my company. Well Asad, here is where our story really begins. It had been a very busy day with a lot going on in the office and it seemed like the phones would not stop ringing. I remember thinking it is almost the New Year and in a few days I will be on vacation as I answered the phone. I expected to hear one of my clients asking me a question but instead I heard a voice say, “are you the Gerri Weiner who gave blood for a bone marrow drive held in Peabody, Massachusetts 13 years ago. I was so surprised. I had to stop and think for a minute as it had been so long and I had not even thought of this in years. I said that I was the person they were looking for and quickly asked them how they ever found me. As they started their search, she said they found me because my name appeared on my web site. She explained that she represented the HLA Registry and that my name had come up as a potential bone marrow match. She asked if I would consider going for a blood test. I quickly said yes. I will never forget her words, “you most probably will not be a match” but the Registry will let me know the results. Later I learned that the HLA Registry is a medical center in New Jersey that is part of The National Marrow Donor Program in the US.

January 2005

Within a few days of the first call I went and gave blood. Several weeks later, I received another call from the HLA Registry asking if I would go for another blood test. They did not give me any information as to who this was for. I assumed the patient was an adult with Leukemia and of course in the US. I said yes, I would go and take another blood test.

March, 2005

I received the 3rd call for more blood tests. At this time, they finally told me that the patient was a little boy under a year old with Hurlers Syndrome. I was shocked, it never occurred to me that this would be for a baby and I had no idea about Hurlers Syndrome. I went to research through the internet to find out all I could about Hurlers Syndrome. I was sure I would not be the match but now that I knew a little bit about the patient I prayed that someone, somewhere would be able to help this little boy. I thought of your family and could not imagine what they must have been going through.

March 28, 2005

I came home from work…another ordinary day. As always, I checked my phone messages. Well Asad, this was no ordinary day! It was the HLA Registry saying the tests had come back and I was a 6 for 6 match for the little boy and would I give them a call as soon as possible. I was so excited. I listened to the message many times to make sure I was hearing it correctly. My little dogs could only stare at me and wonder what was going on. It was late at night but I started calling my family and friends to tell them this wonderful news. First thing next day I was on the phone with the Registry finding out what I needed to do. They told me I had to go for a complete exam to make sure that I was in good health. I immediately made the appointment at Mass General Hospital, one of the best hospital in Boston and passed my exam with no problems.

During this process, I asked many questions…. about you…about the disease….I learned that there was an International Bone Marrow Registry…I asked about the procedure that I would have done….I asked if it was possible that we were related in some way…what were your chances if the bone marrow was successful…I learned it was a 1 in 8 million chance for us to be a match …..my questions were endless. Finally, they told me you were not in the US but they would say no more. Again, I was so surprised as it never occurred to me that you would be in a country so far away. The doctors and nurses were wonderful and they answered as much as they could for me. It seems there were different policies for different centers. I learned it would be 2 years before I would know who and where you were. I couldn’t stop thinking about you. I found that I would tell strangers your story if I had the chance. It was now Asad that I, my family and my friends took you into our hearts. You had no name, no face but you were my boy…my special boy.

May 19, 2005

May 19th was my Mother’s birthday and although she had passed away a few years earlier I was sure in some way this was a good sign and a lucky day for the both of us. This was my big day although it was nothing compared to what you had been through to get ready for the bone marrow. I went to the hospital that day for the procedure and I must say it was a wonderful experience. The doctors and nurses came to see me and they too were so happy for me and you. They told me the plane was ready to fly the bone marrow to you and that you would have it within 24 hours. I stayed in the hospital overnight and went home the following day. I was a little sore but truly I didn’t notice. I was filled with this wonderful feeling and to this very day when I think about it my heart fills with joy.

Here is one of the interesting parts to this story. You my Asad are one lucky boy. Lucky that you were in a place that was able to diagnosis your illness so quickly and lucky again for you, as I was 3 months away from the age cut off when they no longer would consider me as a potential donor. You were at one end of the scale and I was at the other and it was our destiny for this to work.

August, 2005

The Registry called again to say you were doing well however you were still fighting infection and would I give platelets ( another type of blood test ) as you needed this to help battle the infection. Back to the hospital for the test…months later I would learn it was successful.

March 2006

I received the first letter from you family. I was like a little child as I was jumping and yelling with joy. In it they said you were doing well…each day better and better. I also knew from that letter that one I would know you name and who you were. Until then I called you Bo ( short name for Special Boy ). The love and gratitude that was in that letter from your family was so strong you could almost touch it.

July 2007

At last, the letter I have been waiting for. No more are you Bo…now you are my Asad. I have your name and soon the pictures arrive. You are just a little boy but you have touched the lives of many. You make each day a better one just knowing you are healthy and growing. For me Asad you are the best gift of all. I am proud to be part of you.

When I learned that you were in Germany but that your family came for Pakistan, I thought about our story and how wonderful a story it is. I am an American Jewish women who by some miracle was able to help this little Pakistani baby. When I wrote to your father and told him of my background he wrote back and said it best….”when you cut the skin the blood is the same”. My wish for you Asad is that you grow up to be a good boy and a good man. Remember that an act of kindness can touch one or many …you may never know the result but it does not matter. I was lucky that my act of kindness came back to me in a big way. I have you now in my life and for all time you will be my special boy. Soon I will meet you and the pictures I have been looking at for months will come to life when I see those laughing eyes.

We have both been blessed
With love,
Auntie Gerri

wedding dress ..

Finally i ordered my wedding dress.
It is in the traditional red with rust piping
I hope it turns out to be good

JOB Finally

I got a job , i got a job , i got a job
so yeh i did finally manage to get a job .. And now shadi shopping band job shuru
Life will change a bit....

Kya

The other day i was talking to my mom and suddenly out of no where she said to me
" why do u call ur fiance` name?"
(It`s not that i call him bad names, just manhoos and ullu)
and i was like" kyun ami iss se kya hota hai?"
mom:" aadat par jaey gi, baad mein bhi bolo gi.. iss se to nikah toot jata hai"
KYAAAAAAAA!!!!!
Ufffffffff meri maan ... how come .. i mean why.. kaisay .. kyun?
khair i laughed and laughed after this conversation.. on the other hand R(the fiance` sahab) didn`t find it funny..
R: "haan to na diya karo na mujhay galiyaan"
what an idea sir jee

me and my strange feelings

Do you ever think who are you?
I mean... where you came from and what you have to do and why you are living where your are living. Ever got afraid of what will happen if one day everyone disappear.. everyone and everything
What will happen when we die? Will i be able to communicate with the ones left behind? or will there be anyone left behind at all?
Our minds play strange games.. and mine is the strangest of them all

Ga raha tha

Such a beautiful somg

BUGS!!!!

its a funny story... u know how guys call girls in hope that they may respond and they start a friendship :p
so guys have been calling me since so long ago.... and me and my friends started calling them BUGS. I would name these bug,bug1,bug2, and so on on my phone book, so that i know this is not a genuine caller but someone bugging me.
So recently these bugs have started haunting my life again..
I thought i would share the insight about these buggers
There are many types of bugs...some of the bugs act like this

1. calling at one particular time of the day or rather night 11:40pm everyday
2. giving missed calls repeatedly throughout the day
3. calling and saying "aap se baat karni hai"
4. calling with noise in the background... children crying,some song playing uffffffff
5. calling and not saying a word
i have around 4 bugs on my list right now....

thoughts of that horrible day came again

i was organizing what was left of my memories from the U.S today...
and the thoughts of that day came to my mind again ... the day a brutal thief not only took my laptop but with it my memories of the stay in the U.S
i do have some of the pictures and videos , but a lot of them are missing.. those which i was not able to backup before that fatal day
now when i look back i am amazed on my strength and determination
i have two full solved exams due in 2-3 days on my laptop and i redid the whole exams ... along with a term paper .... then i packed my bags .. cleaned the apartment... got the deposit from the realtor ... did all the stuff one has to do before leaving a country for good... (closing all accounts, paying all bills, leaving forwarding addresses, clearance from the university)

now i remember.. yes it was due to the fact that i asked god for just one thing for my stay in the U.S
strength and determination

God thank you !!!

shadi date

so finally my wedding dates have been finalized..... i hope the month of nov is lucky for me

job job job uuuuugh

i hate it!!!!
i simply hate this looking for a job waiting for the interview call.... and then waiting for short listing and the final call thing
i expected a lot more when i was coming back
i expected to get a good job right away
here i am now 4 months have passed since i landed here and no job
two interviews but no job

Self tag

Ten Things You Wish You Could Say to People, don’t take any names

1. I hate it when you do this to me

2. For God`s sake think about other people as well

3. Try to accept me with my mistakes and forgive me

4. You don`t deserve me.

5. Plan things out

6. Take me out to eat

7. I am better than you

8. Try not to hurt people

9. I badly need a job

10.You are so thankless

Nine things about you

1. I love ice cream can eat it anytime of the day

2. I love adventures

3. I am fast at making decisions even though i regret some of them later

5. I am almost always on time

6. I hate unpunctuality and irresponsibility

7. My idea of a perfect day would be at an amusement park or camping

8. I befriend males more than females

9. I try not to hurt anyone`s feelings

Eight ways to win your heart

1. Bring me flowers

2. Surprise me

3. Be intelligent and caring towards people`s feelings

4. Be organized and responsible

5. Your frequency should match mine

6. Make me believe that i am your top priority

7. Encourage me and protect me against evil people

8. Do not expect, if i love you you will automatically get everything

Seven things that are on your mind a lot (random ordering)

1. Meeting honey

2. Life after marrying honey

3. My future babies

4. Finding a job

5. My family

6. friends and their problems

7. Having fun

Six things you wish you never did

1. Whenever i fight with my mom or honey i so wish i had not done that

2. Telling the truth to some people

3. Cutting my hair this short before my marriage

4. I wish i had not said "no" on my cousin`s invitation to come to Vegas with her

5. I wish i had not come back to Pakistan so early

6. I wish i had not gone out that evening my laptop was stolen

Five things that turn you off

1. People who are always complaining

2. No love for one`s country and people

3. Body odor

4. Greed

5. Irresponsible behavior

Four turn on’s

1. Nice weather

2. Flowers and love notes

3. Honey :ALWAYS

4. Dull lights


Three things you want to do before you die

1. Marry honey and live with him

2. Make Hajj

3. Travel the whole world

Two smileys that describe you

1. :D

2. ;)

One confession

I sometimes hate honey like hell..... but that is just for 2 seconds

Consider yourself tagged! YES YOU!

My love for travelling

I am myself amazed on how much i love traveling. I yearn for traveling , for seeing new places, meeting new people, learning about new custom. I hate it nowadays as i am unable to go to any place nut the bazaar for shopping...
God please make a trip possible for me or i will die

wedding dress

so i have not ordered my wedding dress as yet...I have seen so many of them and have not found the perfect one.... (more importantly the perfect priced one)
Yesterday i did go for dress shopping but hard luck ... the shopkeeper was not willing to bargain on the one i liked :(
i think i will have to do with some other dress

Plans

I hate him when R tells me that i should not plan for everything....
if you know me ... one thing you know for sure is that i like to plan things... i hate it when people get late for something... i hate it if there is some unwanted hurdle effecting my plans.... sometimes i think that this is the reason why me and B are friends... like me he also plans out things .. i like that in a guy....

khair nowadays whatever plans i make.. R ruins them .. maybe he is trying to get me out of this planning business
he is so mistaken

2 aur Duo Char

no one tagged me to do this simple .. but it doesn`t hurt to try...........................

4 Places I Go to Over and Over Again

4. OOper wali aunty k ghar
3. peshawar
2. China market
1. Rabi centre

4 People Who Mail Me Regularly

4. Signalianz
3. Fulbrighters
2. Islamic society of NU
1. Maria/Basit

4 of My Favourite Places to Eat

4. Home
3. Any rehri with gol gappas/french fries/dahi bhallas/corn
2. Texas
1. Pappasallis

4 Places I’d Rather be Now

4. Boston
3. NYC
2. Tarbella with my honey
1. Disney World/Sea world

4 Favourite TV Shows

4. Full house
3. My wife and kids
2. Lost
1. Oprah Winfery show

4 Movies I Could Watch Again and Again

4. Andaz apna apna
3. 10 things i hate about you
2. Cheaper by the dozen
1. Father of the bride

wedding to do list

i made my wedding to do list today
i can feel it is going to be long

Getting frustrated

So I have been shopping on and off for the wedding and the list is not reducing , instead it is getting longer . Every time i buy something or go for shopping, there is something that catches my attention that i start thinking is very important and needs to be added to the list. The days are getting hotter now and since i have started going for Arabic lessons ( no i am not going to any Arab country after marriage), so i believe the shopping will be taking place during the evenings....
No job yet, so a reason to get frustrated
I hope and pray i get a job soon ..................

random pictures i took series 4

the kunwaan @ nanai`s place in mansehra and the beautiful FF mess @ Abbotabad

I am missing Boston again

God i miss Boston so much... there is not a single day when i don`t think about my second home
it becomes hard to decide whether that place grew into me or i grew in that place
i have my fondest memories of that place ............
i would never forget summers in Boston
I could think of so many wonderful things about that place
It was recently when at an interview they asked me about my stay in the U.S and my eyes lit up just on the thought of Boston... my beautiful second home

i miss u Boston.. and one day ... one day i will come see u again inshallah
i would listen to these songs about Boston all my life

I'm Shipping Up To Boston - Dropkick Murphys



Boston by Augustana

Baba Ali

It is quite interesting that i came across this person in USA...
We had Eid celebrations at our University where he cane to spread laughter
I have to admit that i was instantly impressed
I some how fell in love with him (a little ). Not really in love but in love like as in , in love with his honesty and piousness and his stories
I wanted to share one of his videos here... he has an excellent website as well
www.ummahfilms.com

here is one video

Wedding eeeeeeeeks!!!

Oh my God... !!!!

I am getting married .....
wedding date has not been finalized yet. They are thinking bout October , so a lot of time left haan
But getting married to a Army guy, you need to buy a looooooot of things .. in fact a complete home . So i am busy in shopping and surveying and making lists and packing
I have just started and i am tired already.... the clothes, the matching, the laces, the tailors ufffffffff
I am hanging on so lets see what happens in a couple of months
I will be posting more about my wedding preps