4 days to the wedding

here i am sitting with my laptop in my lap off course, trying to write about my feelings right now.4 days to my wedding
i want to write things but nothing is coming to my mind. i am starring at the cup of water sitting on my computer table and then my stare goes to my cell, which as usual needs charging. then there is my ja nimaz lying on my brother`s bed, have to pick that up too. My contacts are hurting, have to take them off. some random songs coming to my mind

everything except the feelings for the wedding, leaving my home

nothing ...

so maybe i need to sit back and gather my feelings and emotions which i have neglected for the past i don`t know how many days

R is acting weird, rather his usual self, he has these weird acting times

i don`t want to write anymore and maybe save this blog entry for editing tomorrow but i know if i leave it here i will never finish and publish it
so lets just publish it like this