WHY AM I NOT WRITING ANY MORE

Hey all , I have been wondering why i have not written anything in a long time now. I know i don`t have much readership but still i like to jot all my thoughts down , maybe to read later or for someone who would like to read about my world someday. So since i last wrote, we have moved cities and are bout to move one more time in a month. My son is almost 5 yrs old and going to school. I have another baby on the way , and i pray for him/her everyday. Life is happenning and i am moving with it. I have been hurt several times in the last some years, a few times so hard that i am amazed how i survived. You know how it hurts when someone you love cheats or is not honest. So far i am hanging in there but on the verge of a big decision in my life. Allah help me

cheese cake

I have been craving a cheesecake for the last 5 days now and still no luck :( I got a slice of strawberry mouse cake which the baker told me was a cheesecake slice and that was awful. couldn`t even finish that one little piece. I don`t really know where i can get a good cheese cake in islamabad/rawalpindi :(

What`s going on?

I am excited my favorite TV show bones has a new season. Frst two episodes were filled with suspense and thrill which i thoroughly enjoyed. Grey`s anatomy also has a new season, they are also done with 3 episodes , which were also very nice. Went to see IKEA store in safa gold mall bakra eid and gosht, no bar b que this year working from home for last 9 months. got a break for 4 months now selling off my excess stuff at a women business page on facebook https://www.facebook.com/groups/HerMarketplace/?fref=nf highly recommended thinking about getting my son admitted to school Getting a new laptop after the old one got stolen spent the last two months in pindi because of husband`s official work dharna in isb , haven`t been there yet.

Singapore blog

So guys we(me, my husband and son) are planning to go to singapore and malaysia for vacation. My son is 3yrs +. I am going to write about all the steps involved from planning the trip to execution. We are planning to go in December because that`s when husband will be getting leaves. First i went to get my and my son`s passports made from rawalpindi passport office. We reached there at 9:30am on thursday There were about 20 ladies in line . We had paid the passport fee(Rs. 3000 each) at national bank a day before . There is a branch of national bank at the passport office too. People were in line to get the fee submitted there. We went inside the office to get our photograph taken and got a token number. immediately after photo we were called to first desk for biometrics. We were done with data entry and interview within 30 mins. Following documents are required for passport application NIC and copies old passport copies form B and copies in case of children under 18 Passport office timings are 8am to 1 pm approximate delivery time is 10 days and you get the passport. To collect your pasaport, you need to take your token which was issued on first desk where your photo was taken. For kids, they will give u a form along with the token. that form needs to be attested at two places by serving govt officer 17 grade and above. plus one of the parents id card copy. Next step, we got out photographs taken. For singapore visa , you need photo with white background while for malaysia the blue background will do. Following are he requirements for the visa: NIC copies Form B copies Passports bank statements (last 6 months) photographs

optimist

I am an optimist,well mostly and when i like to be one so today i am becoming an optimist, my all time page views have gone upto 924, although i am sure at least 100 are my own but i am targeting for 1000 now, only 76 more views guys come on. We can do this(i know i will be increasing my page views by some quantity) 1000 is not a big figure for pro blog writers and readers but well its a start for starters like me who suck at creativity and are so caught up in their routine that they start a blog ages ago and don`t write in it or even visit it for months.Its not that i dont have anything to say. i have loads and loads going on. Moving from one place to another, travelling , visiting, cooking , raising a kid, taking care of the household , making new friends etc etc but what lacks is my ability to put things into words and then presenting them here to an audience. i used to be good at writing both Urdu and English. I used to do speeches, participate in essay writing competitions but now i feel i have lost it or maybe i am too lazy to even try. I have become busy and finding it very hard to cope up with life in general. Everyday there is a new challenge waiting for me for which i am anything but ready. Well to cut it short, i will try to write and read more wish me luck

sudan

I was wondering how are sudanese people doing now? I mean after the referendum and división Of the country into reply pieces Whats it like to live in north sudan now.or south sudan Which was never too developed How aré people taking the división and is the eats really over

Slackistan

I heard about Slackistan when i was in USA. I thought i would watch it but never got time. Then that day , dont know from where i thought about downloading and watching it , so i did that. It was overall a good effort put by not so experienced crew. The actors seemed new to me too. I thought the storyline was not that strong and the movie somehow dragged at some stages. Acting needed improvement. But it was like a breath of fresh air nonetheless. The actress "Aisha" got my attention and i remembered seeing her in the magnum add . I did some research and found out that this world is not that bog after all. I knew her mom from somewhere . I liked her in the movie and also found out that she actually got married to the hero of the movie this year. The guy is also a director (Shahbaz Hamid Shigri)

homesick for boston

So actually after a dream, i started feeling homesick for Boston again :( Although i have not been born in Boston but i think of it as my second home. I have lived and studied there. An anyone who as gone to college in Boston knows what i mean.It was a mixed roller coaster kind of stay (happy ,sad, free, and challenging) At times i would cry for my home and would not go out just out of sheer fear of a new country. So when i got settled in the new place and at my college I made friends , joined societies and groups at the college. Sometimes I would also go window shopping all by myself. I would help my friends to move in and out of their apartments. I would travel to other cities by bus, train , car and air I would go on a fiery ride and watch 4th July fireworks in DC. I would watch an ice hockey match and be late for a baseball one at Fenway park. I once tried to get on top of Jhon Hancock building along with my friend but

failed. I did manage to climb all the stairs of the Bunker hill monument. I walked the freedom trail, happily hosted many of my friends and showed them all around Boston . Took a walk with a friend in Boston commons with her 8 month old n a stroller. I once lost my boarding card at Boston logan airport and then had to re buy my ticket to New york I picked and dropped many friends and family from and to the airport Had fun many times in the Infinite corridor at MIT Took many pictures at Harvard while admiring fall colors Watched street performances at Quincy market Loved the Cheesecakes at cheesecake factory HAd breakfast at top of the Hub (prudential center) I remember taking a friend to have ice cream at cold stone

chilling

It is getting cold here.last night it rained and When We woke up it was chilly My baby sneezed and then he had to change into full sleeves and a jeans :) Now have to go get Some full sleeve shirts for him...more shopping Tomorrow Plus i am considering getting my own winter clothes out Yayyy for winters

dream #2

Last night was another dream night but thank God it was not an aweful one
It was an emotional/sad/happy dream
I was in Boston again and went to see my friends (N and Ni)
We met and i started crying , i was so happy to see them again after a long time and all the memories came back to me
I talked to them while playing a game, it was a kind of a challenge game, like the ones we watch on TV (minute to win it kind) (HOW WEIRD IS THAT?????)
Both N and Ni are Indian and Hindu by religion , but in my dream, they were reciting the quran and trying to understand what was written in it. And afterwards i was feeling happy that i have made them read the Quran

Twisted dream it is , but YAY for going to Boston and for seeing Hindus read Quran :)

doubts!!!

There are so many things and people that create doubts in your mind
doubts about views, opinions about right and wrong, about like and dislike about what to do and what not to do
One such incident happened a few days ago when Malala YusafZai was shot .It was extremely sad news. A young and bright girl from Pakistan under attack. But was it any different then the hundreds of girls raped, shot, beaten to death in Syria? is it any less or greater than the mosque burnt in Burma by extremists? I can`t decide.

What i do know is that the world, governments , media, social activists, humanitarians everyone has doubts . Every country , every government, everyone in power and for that matter every human being is in doubt , otherwise they would have never permitted any of these acts

Vacation

Moms top my list of all the people who deserve a vacation
Moms specially full time stay at home, truly deserve a pat on the back every single moment and definitely deserve some time out
I was totally unaware of how kids could be and thats why when i became a mother, it took me with a surprise/shock (read a tornado)
It was an emotional, physicaly , mental and full of shocks challenge for me 
My baby like most of the babies nowadays not only had very little sleep time but also had severe colic
It was a nightmare all day for me, he was always hungry because he didn`t rest all day. He would cry so loud that i felt my ears would burst because of the colic pain in his stomach.

Now that his routine is set, he is out of the colic pain, and my goudi ,i am much relaxed than before but now other problems have started. All moms know what i am talking about. The tantrums, the moodiness, the not wanting to eat etc etc.

So now i think i want , need and deserve a vacation. A long relaxing vacation. Want to go somewhere calm and peaceful, where i can sleep, eat and eat more (hehehe). I want this before i lose my mind completely

 

u gotta be kidding me internet

Recently i have been looking at stats of my blog and wow i have some viewers :)
there are actual people who read what i write (COOOOOL)
i have some pageviews everyday (and yes i have disabled my own page view counts)
So these are other people who view my blog
HAHAHA
*****secret happy dance in my head *****

yet another

so tonight will be another sleepless night for me
although i am very very tired but i dont think i will be sleeping tonight
i hate it

shopping therapy

many people agree that shopping is a therapy especially for women and girls
i like shopping for others, i like both gifting people and buying stuff for them for which i get paid back later

shopping for myself has never made me happy but shopping for others is nice

Recently i did some serious shopping, i got two suits for myself , one for eid and one for the coming winters
I really wanna look nice on this eid , since past a few eids were not so good :(
hope this eid is nice for me