sudan

I was wondering how are sudanese people doing now? I mean after the referendum and división Of the country into reply pieces Whats it like to live in north sudan now.or south sudan Which was never too developed How aré people taking the división and is the eats really over

Slackistan

I heard about Slackistan when i was in USA. I thought i would watch it but never got time. Then that day , dont know from where i thought about downloading and watching it , so i did that. It was overall a good effort put by not so experienced crew. The actors seemed new to me too. I thought the storyline was not that strong and the movie somehow dragged at some stages. Acting needed improvement. But it was like a breath of fresh air nonetheless. The actress "Aisha" got my attention and i remembered seeing her in the magnum add . I did some research and found out that this world is not that bog after all. I knew her mom from somewhere . I liked her in the movie and also found out that she actually got married to the hero of the movie this year. The guy is also a director (Shahbaz Hamid Shigri)

homesick for boston

So actually after a dream, i started feeling homesick for Boston again :( Although i have not been born in Boston but i think of it as my second home. I have lived and studied there. An anyone who as gone to college in Boston knows what i mean.It was a mixed roller coaster kind of stay (happy ,sad, free, and challenging) At times i would cry for my home and would not go out just out of sheer fear of a new country. So when i got settled in the new place and at my college I made friends , joined societies and groups at the college. Sometimes I would also go window shopping all by myself. I would help my friends to move in and out of their apartments. I would travel to other cities by bus, train , car and air I would go on a fiery ride and watch 4th July fireworks in DC. I would watch an ice hockey match and be late for a baseball one at Fenway park. I once tried to get on top of Jhon Hancock building along with my friend but

failed. I did manage to climb all the stairs of the Bunker hill monument. I walked the freedom trail, happily hosted many of my friends and showed them all around Boston . Took a walk with a friend in Boston commons with her 8 month old n a stroller. I once lost my boarding card at Boston logan airport and then had to re buy my ticket to New york I picked and dropped many friends and family from and to the airport Had fun many times in the Infinite corridor at MIT Took many pictures at Harvard while admiring fall colors Watched street performances at Quincy market Loved the Cheesecakes at cheesecake factory HAd breakfast at top of the Hub (prudential center) I remember taking a friend to have ice cream at cold stone

chilling

It is getting cold here.last night it rained and When We woke up it was chilly My baby sneezed and then he had to change into full sleeves and a jeans :) Now have to go get Some full sleeve shirts for him...more shopping Tomorrow Plus i am considering getting my own winter clothes out Yayyy for winters

dream #2

Last night was another dream night but thank God it was not an aweful one
It was an emotional/sad/happy dream
I was in Boston again and went to see my friends (N and Ni)
We met and i started crying , i was so happy to see them again after a long time and all the memories came back to me
I talked to them while playing a game, it was a kind of a challenge game, like the ones we watch on TV (minute to win it kind) (HOW WEIRD IS THAT?????)
Both N and Ni are Indian and Hindu by religion , but in my dream, they were reciting the quran and trying to understand what was written in it. And afterwards i was feeling happy that i have made them read the Quran

Twisted dream it is , but YAY for going to Boston and for seeing Hindus read Quran :)

doubts!!!

There are so many things and people that create doubts in your mind
doubts about views, opinions about right and wrong, about like and dislike about what to do and what not to do
One such incident happened a few days ago when Malala YusafZai was shot .It was extremely sad news. A young and bright girl from Pakistan under attack. But was it any different then the hundreds of girls raped, shot, beaten to death in Syria? is it any less or greater than the mosque burnt in Burma by extremists? I can`t decide.

What i do know is that the world, governments , media, social activists, humanitarians everyone has doubts . Every country , every government, everyone in power and for that matter every human being is in doubt , otherwise they would have never permitted any of these acts

Vacation

Moms top my list of all the people who deserve a vacation
Moms specially full time stay at home, truly deserve a pat on the back every single moment and definitely deserve some time out
I was totally unaware of how kids could be and thats why when i became a mother, it took me with a surprise/shock (read a tornado)
It was an emotional, physicaly , mental and full of shocks challenge for me 
My baby like most of the babies nowadays not only had very little sleep time but also had severe colic
It was a nightmare all day for me, he was always hungry because he didn`t rest all day. He would cry so loud that i felt my ears would burst because of the colic pain in his stomach.

Now that his routine is set, he is out of the colic pain, and my goudi ,i am much relaxed than before but now other problems have started. All moms know what i am talking about. The tantrums, the moodiness, the not wanting to eat etc etc.

So now i think i want , need and deserve a vacation. A long relaxing vacation. Want to go somewhere calm and peaceful, where i can sleep, eat and eat more (hehehe). I want this before i lose my mind completely

 

u gotta be kidding me internet

Recently i have been looking at stats of my blog and wow i have some viewers :)
there are actual people who read what i write (COOOOOL)
i have some pageviews everyday (and yes i have disabled my own page view counts)
So these are other people who view my blog
HAHAHA
*****secret happy dance in my head *****

yet another

so tonight will be another sleepless night for me
although i am very very tired but i dont think i will be sleeping tonight
i hate it

shopping therapy

many people agree that shopping is a therapy especially for women and girls
i like shopping for others, i like both gifting people and buying stuff for them for which i get paid back later

shopping for myself has never made me happy but shopping for others is nice

Recently i did some serious shopping, i got two suits for myself , one for eid and one for the coming winters
I really wanna look nice on this eid , since past a few eids were not so good :(
hope this eid is nice for me

happiness

i need to find it
i want it
maybe i am looking in wrong places

dream #1

So this is my first dream for the blog
i saw my childhood friend A in my dream , we used to be very very good friends. we were together in school for about 12 years
He used to be kinda flirt. Had many girl friends. He was rich and good looking , played sports was tall and stylish so many girls were after him :)
People used to think that i have a crush on him but i loved him ... loved him like a very very dear friend . if u have grown up with someone . u share the same class in school , u do his home work, talk for hours play together, go to each other`s homes then u become something .. and he was my that something
But it all went away like a flash .. (that is another story for another time)

Khair back to the dream.. i saw him and me still great friends .. i felt the same love i used to have for him
and i saw love for me too in him
he was all grown up .. had some business or something and we both were running after each other.. searching for each other in the dream .. when we finally found each other, i was trying to make him understand that we can`t be together and he should let go .. and he was telling me that it is impossible... after that the dream became blurry
but it continued to linger the next day in my thoughts.. i woke up with a strong feeling ... as if i could feel him from my dream. i thought about him all day and wanted to talk to him... just fought with my thoughts whether to call him or not and finally called him in the evening. but his number was off.

i dont know if he still thinks abt me, he still wants to talk or not but i do miss him sometimes