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I am in deep deep thoughts now adays... its killing me
i just want to run away .. from you , from everything
I want it to finish .. just finish
I am thinking about deciding my course of life
i just can`t live like this any more. live with this feeling
and the worst part is you don`t understand
i have been telling you again and again, but you just don`t realize what that does to me .. what you actions do to me
so it`s been too much and too long
i am tired now
i can`t take it any more
so i guess i should ease your pain and mine and just leave

I expected so much in the beginning, but then tried to accomodate you and started expecting less... little by little i killed my feelings , my desires and my expectations
but u kept on going

I expected to never ever have to be patient. but your actions made me patient
I lost my chances of being apoilt, emotional
instead i had to take care of you, but you never realized or appreciated

Now i am in a big big mess... and i have tried to clean it up so many times.... amend my heart so many times
but it is broken into so many pieces now that i can`t make it whole again for u
and i fear that even if i forget everything, you will break my heart again and hurt me again
you just don't want to clean up the mess.




So I just want to tell you that I love you, because it's true, and I'll say that I want you around because that's also true. but I can't tell you I need you, not anymore....
 
because i think you don`t need me